Unaware

While there is much to write about my first three months at Tenwek Hospital, I would like to reflect back on the road leading here …

Just the other day I was communicating with a friend back in the states who was deeply impacted by recent life events demonstrating the Lord’s omniscience and faithfullness even in the things we don’t realize.  Probably all of us have either experienced first hand or heard inspiring stories of how God reveals his character through answered prayers.  But I think it is also important, as my friend had pointed out, to recognize that God is in the business of making the paths straight for his children even when they are unaware.

A few months before I left my urology practice in the states, I remembered my need to have malpractice tail coverage.  For those who may not be familiar with this legal matter, any physician who ceases to work is still liable for malpractice claims for a number of years, which varies from state to state.  In Georgia, where I practiced, this time period is two years.

My assumption was that my malpractice coverage would be paid by the group, but to my dismay I discovered that I was incorrect.  An oversight on my part, I admit, and not an easy mistake for a diligent planner like myself to swallow.  This created a potentially major obstacle, as our mission budget had already been established.  The possibility of adding a line item for monthly malpractice premiums would be a significant burden and could even delay our departure to the field.  After mentally preparing myself for the staggering cost I expected to pay, I mustered the courage to call my malpractice carrier for a quote.  It should be noted that in my short-sighted, task-oriented mindset, I had failed to prayerfully leave the issue in God’s hands, at least consciously.

The first question asked by the insurance agent was how long I had been with the group, which was just over five years. Already a little confused about the relevance of her inquiry, I nearly fell out of my chair with her next statement – “Well, any physician that we have been covering for at least five years gets FREE tail coverage upon retirement.” Impossible. Nothing is free.  But despite my disbelief and repeated interrogation, her position could not be swayed.  So free it was.  The only caveat was that I would not be able to practice (in the U.S.) for the next two years or else I would be liable for those premiums. No coincidence that my first term on the mission field would be for two years. Also no coincidence that God had allowed me work just the right length of time to receive this unexpected blessing.

Free.  Like the unmerited gift of forgiveness that I’ve been given.  Free.  Like the feeling of having a thousand pounds lifted from my shoulders.  Free to walk through this life without having all the solutions because I can trust in a loving Creator who does.

Perhaps what amazes me the most is that as children of God, even in our complete unawareness of the struggles and roadblocks that await us around the corner, the Lord, in His omniscience and faithfulness, goes before us to make our paths straight.

From “Amazed” by Lincoln Brewster:

You dance over me while I am unaware
You sing all around but I never hear the sound

Lord I’m amazed by You
Lord I’m amazed by You
Lord I’m amazed by You
And how You love me

2 Timothy 2:13 – “if we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.”

Blessings,

Paul

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